What is a blog?

I wonder... what will happen to all this in the future.

I mean, as we look at our past, we find scrolls, manuscripts, documents, pictures that tell us about the culture and people of a certain time.

A thousand years from now, will these documents exist? Will future archeologists be able to look back on our thoughts, our worries, our plans - or will this electronic media be lost?

And, if it isn't - what will they think of us?

Today... I am sinking

Yesterday, we decided upon a Finance Officer... In the process our Executive of Trustees seemed to come together to a common purpose and plan. It was exciting to see agreement and working together.

Yesterday, I felt really good about our move to Kenora - like I was doing the right thing for my family.

Also - I felt it was good for the place I work - to be able to make some changes and move on to a financially healthier place where jobs wouldn't be so tenuous...

and for our church to make some changes and be able to stand on their own and decide to make it work. I really thought everything was good.

But that was yesterday...

Today I was told that I have basically been letting down everyone around me for the past year, that I am leaving a mess and that I am not providing the support to fix it.

Today, I was told that recent decisions that I was a part of, were wrong and that I wasn't owning up to my mistakes, even though I was only part of a group making those decisions - and they aren't necessarily mistakes.

Today, I was bawled out by someone I care about alot.

Today, information I shared hurt another person I care about alot.

Today, I went home at lunch - walking without a coat in the rain, because I really needed to get away - and I needed a hug - but nobody was home so I went to my room and cried.

Today, I felt like I have let everyone down and I am just making one mistake after another. That I am failure and have been for some time - that I don't know what I am doing - and maybe that is true.

Today I feel like I have been left behind, ignored and forgotten by others I thought cared about me in the past.

Today, I am really struggling to keep up the boundaries between what is truly my problem and what are the outward expressions of frusteration that manifest themselves in accusations and false blame.

Today, I am having a hard time not dragging up past hurts and failures and letting them pull me down.

Today, I am stuggling to be positive about who I am.

Today, I am sinking...

... but a friend has invited me for pizza and that helps!

Sometimes it makes all the difference in the world.

Tomorrow will be better.

Where does Kenora come from?

I learned something new recently. Kenora is actually three towns: Keewatin, Norman and Rat Lake. The name comes from the first two letters of each name... I thought that there was Kenora and a seperate town, Keewatin... but I was wrong!

So there!

I'm going for a ride...

And I'm never comin' back... or at least not for 5 years or more.

Well, maybe for holidays and weekends!

So, we are moving to Kenora. My last day at work is October 13th (Friday the 13th - ominous, no?) I will taking the Superintendent of Finance position with the Kenora Catholic DSB. Eric and the boys will be following, hopefully soon!

We found a house in Keewatin (a western part of Kenora) to rent and we have picked out schools for our kids! The fact that we are actually moving is just starting to sink in - we have to change our address, pack our stuff, find a doctor in Kenora...

Leave our friends...

What am I thinking?

But, I am looking forward to the new position, the new board... only having one board to worry about...

So, we are moving.

Wonder Woman!

No, Wonder Woman didn't make the top 100 most powerful women... and it is a shame.

Wonder Woman was my hero as a child. I remember having a babysitter who would let me stay up late to watch her on TV. My husband has started getting me the collection of DVDs with the series. I really like them - even though they are now a bit corny and have really poor special effects!

She is an amazing figure - strong, smart, beautiful, caring, etc... (ya, she also has an amazing figure!)

I still have a bit of hero-worship for her. She seems so strong (mentally, and spiritually as well as physically) and doesn't really need anyone to help her, but she still gets help from others and has friendships and relationships with others.

To WonderWoman!!!

100 Most Powerful Women

The Forbes list of the world's 100 most powerful women recently. I was encouraged to look through them and see so many women from countries other then the US. One of the most striking things was that there were many women who are Presidents/Prime Ministers/Chancellors of their respective countries. This topic has become a bit of debate as some of us eagerly anticipate the change in Presidency for our neighbours to the south... Of course, we stand in pride over the fact that we have, in fact, had a female leader - for less then a year - but we've done it nonetheless. However, the US seems no closer to breaking this barrier. We wonder if Hilary has the momentum to do this - to break through the Whitehouse glass ceiling.

I also wonder - is this such a big deal around the world? Do we, in North America, make more of an issue of gender differences then other countries like China, Bangladesh, Germany, South Korea, Finland, Britian, all of whom have had female leaders. Are we more "backward" in this respect - or have we created leadership positions that don't allow women to aspire to them? Or are we lacking in female leadership? Or are our women smart enough to figure out that they will be more successful and happy by leading companies and organizations rather then countries?

Do we, in Canada, have any women in politics who might actually aspire to the Prime Minister position? If not - then why?