Disappointing News

I received some disappointing news today - sorry, I can't share the details with the general public... but, I am forever facinated with my response to disappointing news.

My usual first reaction is quite calm - I accept the information, process it, look for rationality to it, do what has to be done in the present and move on...

Then it hits - disappoinment, anger, the intense desire to go back in time and change things. This usually leads to a bit of an obsession - I go back and revisit everything, research what I could have done differently, take action - even if there is no action to take.

When I am in a situation where there is nothing more I can do, I feel at a loss - I want to "do" something to make it better, but there is nothing I can do but accept it, learn from it, and hopefully do better next time...

Then there is God - I know he is involved in our lives, and I take some comfort from reassuring myself that He might have a better plan for me - perhaps there is another opportunity or something is going to happen... or maybe this wasn't the right thing for me - and I would have been more miserable as a result...

But, then there is another side - what if the "reason" provided wasn't the full truth. What if there is more to it that I'm not seeing. What if how others perceive me isn't how I think others perceive me. What if, what if, what if...

Do you know how to quiet the "what if's" of life?

Anyway, I know this is somewhat criptic, but it has been helpful for me to share all this with you (whoever you are). I am disappointed. I am a bit angry and frusterated. Yet, I am hopeful for future possibilities.