Coffee House - Untitled

Tonight was coffee house. I really like our coffee houses, hearing others perform and share either their original work, or pieces that mean a lot to them.

I also really like performing...

I also really hate performing!

I get so nervous. I really like sharing and I have always loved singing. It is so great to be able to do that for people and have them appreciate it.

The problem is whether or not they appreciate it.

After coffeehouse, I seem to have a down - like I've gotten myself all hyped up to share - and enjoyed it (even when I mess up every song I sing/play like tonight), then hit an emotional low.

I wonder - did people really like it, or were they just being polite. Are people getting tired of me - of my sappy songs. And it is scary sharing something I've written... What will people think or wonder about me?

I also sort of feel like I've hit a wall - a plateau. Tonight was NOT one of my better performances... and I need to get over using the music. I have almost all my pieces committed to memory - but the words on the music stand are like a security blanket.

So, I guess I need to make a leap...

Or maybe next time I'll share a Drummond poem.